Lack of Self Confidence

What are u not confident with? Self ability, outlook, ability to take care of a family, to communicate with people... or watever. As for me, i think there are two....  COMMUNICATION WITH PEOPLE & LOVE

I have problem communicating with people, as I always so scared that I'll say something that will accidently show my weaknesses and embarrass myself. That's why, most of the time, especially when meeting new friends, I'll be very quiet, I won't talk much.

I think I'll need to attend some classes or training to improve my communication skill and learn how to increase my self confident when talking to the others, and present myself better.

The second, LOVE. I think im scare to love, due to many time of failure that i faced regarding love. I had been cheated, betrayed, dumped... these made me lost the confidence about love and became scared to love anymore. The bad experience i had before caused by certain 'bad guys' made me who i am today. I'm hard to trust other people, always feeling suspicious to my partner, friends... How am i going to love again?

I always feel that im not a pretty gal, not a good gal... how am i going to keep my boyfriend by my side? There are so many other gals out there, which is a lot better than me. Will my boyfriend cheat on me? Will he dump me one day for a better gal? I know im just lack of self confidence!! But i cant do anything to change this...

I had been cheated once, made me feel like im a fool!! My best friend betrayed me, took away my boyfriend from me. And there was a guy, suddenly disappeared without any news, and suddenly came back, and then disappeared again. Gosh!!

How am i going to love again even there's a really good guy standing in front of me, waiting for me to nodd my head, to tell him that... I love him too??