Today I came home with very good mood. Once I stepped in the house, and I saw you parked your car outside, my mood became even better. I planned everything, to have good chat with you, have dinner and then we go to play badminton together. We were good; unwrapping a parcel from Groupon together, looked at the product and studied how to use it, together. Until I mentioned about tomorrow's dinner with my family, you turned to be uninterested (which I realized it always happened whenever I mention about my family), and you went straight to bed, saying you were exhausted. I know you were tired, but a minute ago you were just alright. I'm not blind.
Why is it each time I mention about my family, you'll have that kind of reaction? Marrying you makes me stay away from my family, and only during weekend I can see them. All I wish is that you can spend time with them too (especially my mum), like what I'm doing in your house here. I had already trying my best to make sure I'll have dinner with your parents on every Sunday. And can't you just do that for me, only on that certain Saturdays?
I miss my mum, I'm worried about her. I want to go home and spend time with her. She's the one I love most in my life. If you truly love me, I'm sure you'll love my family too. The question is, do you really love me?
Woke up from your nap, you went straight to your laptop. Yeah, fine. Maybe your work is really urgent, that you need to settle before dinner. But then, during dinner? After dinner? Only when I said I'm not joining you for badminton, then only you try to show some care. And that's it!
It's only a month more, not even 2 months after we got married. I'm not happy... I can't tell anyone, not my mum, not anyone. Tell you? You'll only say I'm thinking or worrying too much. If this is the life of marriage, I'd rather not to get married. Then I'll be pampered always. At least, I still have the chance to choose my happiness.
What am I supposed to do now? Take bath and go to sleep? I really don't know.........
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